4 years past, today

Dear love,
Here we are after 4 years togetherness
If only i could hear what say in your
Of how you feel along this journey..

I always wonder,
How precious your words of your feeling
Within said of everytime is

I never feel any bored,
At everytime you said you love me
I never feel any bored,
At everytime you do a single care
I never feel any bored,
At everytime you look into my eyes...

But this forth
Should begin to tell of my afraidness..

Were you begin to bored,
After my lack of caring recently
Were you begin to bored,
After years of saying love each day
Were you begin to bored,
After years of beside you,
with the sama face...

Within times had passed ,
Now i do not have any courage to ask you so..

But if you ever ask of any feeling about you, my dear
I only need one to tell...
That i wish forever is with you
In this life...and the life after...

But once..just once which keep around of asking,
Were you have the same feeling with mine...
Were you..
Were you...

Relikui

Thank you Allah...
Thank you for everything...
Those words are eternally spoken but it never describe how much I thank you...dear Lord...
For everything you have given to me..

Penantian bertahun tahun...yang terasa begitu panjang dan melelahkan , akhirnya Enkau jawab dengan hadirnya Abdul Qodir Ali Audah,

16 Jumadil awwal / 8 april 2012

Penantian hampir tiga tahun, Engkau akhirnya jawab dengan hadirnya Uwais Abdullah,

1 oktober 2015

Memang...
Engkau telah katakan bahwa kenikmatan dunia sungguh sedikit...dan takkan pernah disempurnakan melainkan nanti di akhirat...

Manusia yang paling kusayang..
Papa...Adrian Madjid..
Yang meski kadang masih pilu tiap memgingatnya
Papa...harus berpulang ke rahmatullah...

6 jumadil akhir/ 5 maret 2016

Tapi itukah relikui , ya Allah...

Hal hal yang siap tak siap harus bisa diterima setiap insan..termasuk aku didalamnya...

Terimakasih ya Allah...
Untuk segala relikui ini...

Aku ingin bersyukur kepadaMu
Selamanya..

Thank You

Thank you dear prince,
for being so sincere,
For being so caring,
For being so patient,
In many hours,
At many chance.....

Sometimes i have nothing,
but prayer,
That the power of prayer,
The ridho Allah will take you to
HappYness here and then, eternally

I seldom think that my present wouldn't make you happy forever...
But I love you indeed
With all my true heart...
Yes I love you so much...as what everyday I tell you....

Dear Lord....thankyou for bring him to my life...

I love you so much.....

Every couple got the chance...

....so why can't we?
Oh no, its not the matter of chance ...nor time... But its always destiny bring me...bring us.....
Sometimes I could have my teardrops to endure this sort of feeling....
But Im sure as the sun shines....and still shine all through the days,
that soon we will get the chance...
To me feel how wonderful it must to have you inside....
To see you born later and to look how magic you are, to live suddenly surround us...
To see how gorgeous and beautiful you are, as if your dad.....

I always love my students, oh dear Lord Almighty...
For years....I taught them,educate them,take care of them....with my heart....
So would that be soon my time...our time to have our own, oh Dear Lord....?

To have a baby of our own....
To be a mom...a dad of our daughter...our son....
Oh My Lord....
We are hoping to you deeply to granted our wishful....

i keep all the tickets

i remember how i used to throw out all the trashes, about tickets and payment receive of any kind.
but not after I met you, my dear one...
every step we made is make new history, new sweet memory...
so I decide to let it be memorized..
so I keep all the tickets where we had ever been into,
any insidious movies, or any ever,
to let you inside my soul,
in my dear diary stories.....

so let me keep them all...

just like a child

suatu hari berbincang-bincang dengan orangtua murid dan guru tentang anak-anak.... mereka bilang, betapa anak-anak kadang begitu sulit untuk diatasi. Seperti saat mereka (para ibu) sedang dalam emosi karena anaknya, mereka justru sangat ingin dipeluk...padahal ibu mereka dalam emosi yang sangat....seperti kata mama Syifa. Mama syifa bilang saat itu mereka pernah bertengkar karna suatu hal hingga Syifa menangis. mamanya masih marah, tapi Syifa bilang ia ingin dipeluk.....disusul mama yang lain yang mengiyakan..

sayang....kalau kamu marah padaku, apakah kamu berfikir yang sama, bahwa saat itu kamu ingin menjauh, sedang yang selalu kubtuhkan adalah pelukanmu?
meyakinkanku dalam emosi apapun hatimu selalu teduh didekatku?

aku, selalu butuh pelukanmu.....
pelukanmu yang tanpa syarat...

Always Missing You

I miss you everyday,
all the time,
feels always just want to hold you in my hand,
to feel you keep close to me...
being away from you,
is just closer to feel a hardest day....

but have you ever feel the same...